I go for a walk in East Liberty in heavy rain
No umbrella keeps the direction
the cathedral rises
I swore over the roofs of this city
I would never live in Nico and Kai go shopping
in the giant eagle. I know
he probably takes good care of him
make him laugh and feed him
Cheerios. I could get in my car
and drive up into the big world
Everyone would notice.
Yesterday I was dreaming in a panic
and turned missing too early
the Armstrong Tunnel and pulled up
Washington is trying to get to the south side.
I could see this busy strip curve behind me
in the mirror, but I went up
and away, over the three rivers –
Allegheny and Monongahela hurry
in the Ohio – a shining one
blue body arms in surrender
the hills bright with sunset the fountains
immerse at the point
back in concrete, some people watching
getting smaller and smaller.
I live in a city that I hate sometimes.
I have no job to write on the doctor’s forms.
When my child cries, I often freeze.
I approach the smell of my family
from heavy rain in my hair, want
one way through – but I chose these people
who put up with my hideousness.
I want to run towards this city of my life
like the heroine once at the end of the film
She learned what really matters.
But I’m just going a little faster
Count the lights in old warehouses
Center avenue cut bright squares
the gray air of Pittsburgh.
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